Those who come on your path can bring you triggers, can bring you lessons, and all of the hard stuff.
Hermionie triggering me about Cho Chang.
Ainsley triggering me about focusing on “not enough” or “feeling bad”, and then unconsciously projecting it onto her. It’s subtle. I get triggered a lot by when “I do not feel that she desires me in the way I want to be desired, which is touch, her jumping my bones, being 100% present for my feelings and conversations, her being turned on, signs of “liveliness” or hitting me, or her reaching climax”.
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What I noticed is “how quickly” I react to this “lack or validation” in the following ways:
–> Was it because I was vibrating “I want to break up with you?”
–> Was it because I was vibrating “This isn’t working”
–> Was it because I was vibrating “Perceiving and trying to understand” –> what am I missing / lacking?
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In some ways, the classic “relationship” traumas and patterns that are triggered (when you meet someone or agree to be together) are the hardest. Sometimes the most subtle –> and then they don’t even notice. Or worse yet, you don’t notice.
- Uncover them. Naturally or with help
- Get curious. Seeing things consciously is the first step.
- Identify the areas of where words or frequencies were communicated.
- Get creative about how to address or talk about it.
- Think of a few ideas on how to take actions
- The most difficult ones will often seem to require drastic changes
- In my life, it’s the subtle changes that are the most powerful
- And those subtle changes are coming back to the altar practice, connecting with the great spirits, returning to the live beam meditation.